Nobody Cries, There's Only Butterflies

Take me away,
to better days.
Take me away,
A secret place,
A sweet escape.
I got a pocket full of sunshineeee.


You know what, Danny? I hate you. And yet, I still really like you.
You're the most amazing guy in person, but there's a problem. You never want to SEE me in person. And you don't text me that much. What's your problem? SERIOUSLY!!!
I mean, I'm actually looking forward to school because I'll see him there... -shudders- .... and I HATE school. Sort of. Even though I'm really good at it. And it keeps me un-bored. But still. This is sick.


I went to help with band music today at school with Shanon and Julia and my ex-boyfriend Jared. It was SUPER fun.... not.... it was really awkward cause Jared and I are supposedly good 'friends' now, but I feel terrible about the fact that I'm now dating his best friend (at least, kind of), and he doesn't know yet. I don't know if he's going to be super upset or not really care, but I'm afraid he'll stop talking to me or get really mad when he finds out. Danny needs to be a man and tell him himself. And he needs to tell his family. It seems like he doesn't care AT ALL about this. And if he doesn't care, I sure shouldn't care. But I do.


I should STRANGLE him.


My brother's girlfriend Gina said he's treating me like crap and that I should break up with him. He should be treating me like a goddess. I mean, really, he doesn't deserve someone as cool as me. I'm amazing. Beautiful, smart, sexxxy, short, quiet, good at cooking, and nice (most of the time).


If only I believed that I was too good for him, and not the other way around.


I bet all this anger I'm feeling towards him is just gonna go *POOF* when I see him next. Cause he's all tall and Irish and charming and beautiful. And he wants a 'low-maintenance' girlfriend. So that's what I have to be.


I disgust myself.


Okay. That's enough for now.


I can't think of how to say goodbye...


so, hello!