Love is Not Rude, Love is Not Irritable

August 30, 2011

I asked several people to tell me what aggravated them about me. Here are the results:

Anna:
Too Quiet
Don't Defend Myself
Hufflepuff-ish

Michelle:
Too Judgmental
Not enough Self-Confidence
Impatient

Josh:
Sarcastic

Shanon:
Oversensitive
Overdramatic
Immature

Colleen:
Bad Jokes

Sam:
Short

Mom:
Neglectful

Dad:
Procrastinates Too Much


It actually wasn't too hard for me to hear any of these. Except when Sam told me I was short, because that just hurt. That's the one thing on this list that I can't change. I do plan to change some of these things, if that's possible.
I want to change the following things:
Don't Defend Myself
Too Judgmental
Not Enough Self-Confidence
Overdramatic
Immature
Neglectful

So I hope to become someone who defends myself, is not judgmental, is confident and not too dramatic, is mature, and is not neglectful or irresponsible. The other things on the list are either things that I like about myself or just too hard to change. Habits are hard to break, especially if they define who you are. I feel like being quiet and oversensitive are just part of who I am.

August 31, 2011

Today, I was tempted to become irritated when Shanon said things that I wanted to argue with in English. It was difficult not to be upset. Also, when Danny came to sit at our table during lunch, like everything's all of a sudden just 'okay' with us (even though I put a note in his locker asking if he wanted to still be friends after he dumped me... but then I found out that he cheated on me so I'm not sure I want to be his friend now). Anyway, that made me angry too, but I just left the table and went to hide by the choir room and read my book where it was safe and ex-free. I think avoiding a bad situation is better than letting your anger out.