Scotty

I started falling for him the first day I met him. He was the voice of George Pepperdine in our Frosh Follies skit and he was amazing. He spoke in a Scottish accent the first time we talked and I freaked out because, well, Scottish accents are hot. He was already sort of friends with my suitemate Alex and her friendboy Goose, so we became good friends pretty quickly. I had a crush on him the second day we met while he was doing magic tricks with playing cards. Then I found out from different people that he had a girlfriend. She lives in Minnesota. He's lived in Newport CA for his whole life, I think. They met at a summer camp and started dating ten days later. They've seen each other only five times and spent less than a month together. But they've been dating for over two years and he thinks they'll get married. He invited me over to his room a few times to hang out, just the two of us. He started giving me these vague hints that a sophomore had a crush on me. Eventually I found out more things about this mysterious suitor. She was - wait for it - a girl. And she didn't go to Pepperdine. And she had a boyfriend. And he knew that she liked me, and he wanted to watch us together. I was considering it, because, ya know, YOLO. Whatever. One day I convinced him to tell me her name. Guess who it was? HIS GIRLFRIEND. WHAT??? WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED. Anyway, I declined to have hot lesbo sex with his girlfriend because... a) she's not attractive. like at all. b) she lives in fucking MINNESOTA. c) I have a huge crush on kevin and I couldn't handle that. and d) I guess I want my first lesbo experience to be speshal. So I told him and he was like "okay." And we moved on.
We went to see the Pepperdine Improv troupe one night with our friends and we sat next to each other. I started brushing his arm with mine and was like "we should play the awkward game." And then he started tracing his fingers along my arm and interlacing his fingers with mine and rubbing my palm with his thumb and we held hands for awhile and I kind of went insane. Alex talked to us afterwards individually and told us we had to stop. 
Two nights ago I went over to his room because I had to create my character for Dungeons and Dragons. His roommate Jared had left for the weekend so we were alone. I laid down on Jared's bed and asked him to lay down next to me. Then I was like, "I could totally beat you at the awkward game." And he was like, "No way." And we went over to his bed and I don't remember everything that happened, but he pulled me down on top of him and I asked him to take his shirt off and he agreed. He pushed my hair back behind my ear and whispered things to me and traced his fingertips over my lower back, pulling my shirt up, moving his hands across my shoulderblades and down my sides and touching my butt softly; the whole time I was laying on top of him, our feet touching. He whispered in my ear, "Give up, lass. I'm going to win." I ran my fingers through his curly brown hair and dipped my head down to gently bite his earlobe and suck on it teasingly. When my teeth touched his skin, his head went back and he gasped. I pulled back to look at his face and his eyes were closed. When he opened them he was like "I hate you so much." and smiled. I continued to play with his earlobes and started leaving lingering kisses down his neck, sucking and leaving beautiful red marks of my affection over his neck and chest. At one point he was like "is that all you have?" So I took his finger in my mouth and swirled my tongue around it like I was giving it a blowjob. He started moaning and saying, "Come on Jess, take me deeper... I love it when you do that." I knew he was just acting to try to make me lose, but it was still really hot... haha. Whenever I bit his earlobes he would moan and pull me more tightly to him. I rested my elbows on his amazing pale chest and gazed into his desperate murky green-blue eyes that looked like the Malibu ocean after a tormenting storm. His face was flushed and he looked happy and guilty at the same time. I was incredibly happy. I was over at his room for about six hours until the RA kicked me out at 1am which is the curfew for girls. We called it a tie at the awkward game and he said we would continue the next night. He texted me saying "That was fun. but I think I won ;)"
The morning afterwards, he sent me a message saying, "Hey Jessie, last night was really fun, but can we not do that again? Please?" And I was like "mmkay." Then we played Dungeons and Dragons with some of our other friends for pretty much the entire day. I winked at him and licked my lips a couple times and he smiled and rolled his eyes. After I left, he texted me saying "That was fun." and I was like "yeah I liked playing." And he was like "I was talking about last night." And I was like, "Oh. Yes that was fun." And he was like "I knew it ;)" and then "I still won though." And I was like "no way, if either of us won, it would be me. You gave up." and he was like "I could totally win." And I was like "prove it." And he was like "fine. come over at 7."
He was wearing a kilt so that was super hot. His bed broke (because his bed breaks a lot, not because we were having hot kinky sex on it or anything) so we started fooling around on Jared's bed. I bit his earlobes a couple times and unbuttoned his white shirt a bit. Then his friend Evan knocked on the door and he told me to hide in the corner. When Evan left, Kevin sat down on the bed and said, "We need to stop. My morals are suddenly kicking in" or something like that, and he looked like he was about to cry. He said he felt really guilty about what we'd done the night before and he couldn't do it again. I told him I felt bad about tempting him but he kept saying it was his fault. I told him I thought he should tell his girlfriend what had happened and he was like "Yeahhh I should..."
The next day (today) we went to get breakfast. He was wearing a collared shirt which wasn't that unusual, but he told me he had to, to hide the hickeys on his neck, and I laughed. He said his friend Shane had convinced him to tell his girlfriend everything. So later I asked him if he had told her, and he's all "No, shane convinced me not to" and I'm like "what the fuck?" And so we have arrived at the end of my story of my loverboy thus far. I really really like him and I'm not entirely sure where to go from here.