Hey baby

I love you so much still. I miss you like hell. I need you. I need to be in your arms, I need your soft lips on mine, I need your blond hair running through my fingers. I miss your beautiful eyes that are purple and green and brown and all the colors of love. I miss your affection and your love and your amazing smile and your laugh and everything about you. I can't even write this without crying.

Will Sucks

Reasons why Will and I would never work:

He gets angry too easily and is fine with using physical force to get his way
He can't keep commitments and is never ready in time
He pressures me into doing things when I don't want to do them
Most of what he says is bitching about things in his life that are going wrong
He has no sense of self-control or responsibility
He puts little to no effort into relationships
He will constantly let you down and never shows that he cares about you
He is not spontaneous; the only time he will buy you flowers is on valentine's day
If you are mad at him he will in turn express dissatisfaction with you until you give in and admit that you were 'wrong' when it was his mistake that caused the problem.

I want to move on so badly.

A Poem For Will

It hit me like a storm, knocking out all sense of trust

I had to make it right before we were overcome by lust.

I ended things, but didn’t leave; that was my first mistake

I fell in love with you again, and ended the short break.

We kissed a thousand times in the dark lit streets at night,

You told me that you loved me, but something didn’t feel right.

I changed my mind over and over again; then I made my choice

I’m in love with you, I screamed, but you refused to hear my voice.

These pieces of my shattered heart have been this way before,

I hoped that things would change this summer now and evermore

But I trusted you and I trusted him, and you both let me down

Nothing left to do; I’m so glad I’m moving out of town.